1:07 a.m.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
A Night Piece
Atmosphere matters.
What permeates the air, matters.
Sucking in gusts of whatever surrounds, one neglects to consider the
consequences. We are plants. We grow and wither. We thrive and shrink once in touch with
extremes. Certain atmospheres are
jolting. We don’t understand. We hold
out, waiting for something to give, improve.
But truthfully, an atmosphere is an innate part of any established environment. The fixtures within may change. The atmosphere, rarely so. Atmospheres choke. You leave one that breathes life and upon
entering another, gasps prevail.
Questioning, why this altitude?
Where to grasp? Where to find
solace? I tell you, not in this
atmosphere. To flee, you understand,
requires strength. Strength few
have. Instead, it is customary to
tolerate, to wait, to wish, to wait. You
ask, what will fill the thoughts of others when I disappear? Happy in my disappearing, happy to never be
seen again. It is interesting, I think,
because in most cases, you were never really seen. It is not you who disappears from their
sight. It is a waif of yourself, a
flailing plant. But, only you know
that. So you run. Looking for somewhere to place roots, ever
fearful of “the grass is greener” and the falsehoods such a phrase
entails. In quiet, you are again struck
by a voice. You’ve heard it all along
but now, in your tiredness, you choose to listen. With its sweet words, relief touches the air. You move forward,
tentative but alright. You breathe, you
feel, your roots seize ground. You look
about and are astonished. Heaven, is
it? A, mirage, you think. What beauty and grace. How is it so?
Has it been that long since these eyes have seen free? No, not long at all. You’ve simply been covered. Covered by low hanging clouds. Entrenched in nomadic sorrows. Tired of being everywhere and belonging
nowhere. But, now you see dust rise. A clean dust, sprinkles of life. It soon settles, as does your gait. You feel happy. Clear mind. It is here that your atmosphere
is most improved. Where impairment has ceased. Not hardship or pain, mind you, for it always
comes. Rather, your heart has loosened
its clench. You no longer fear the jeopardy of existing in a place not your own. You can feel, think, and breathe in this atmosphere. No longer must you run. In fleeing what was comfortable but contorted,
you have reached enlightenment and peace. In fact, once you ceased resistance and acknowledged what truly was, it happened almost
naturally. You have been allowed to
embrace that which is naturally felt. Never
easy to find, forever beautiful. This
atmosphere.
1:07 a.m.
1:07 a.m.
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